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Tuesday, May 12

Need your Prayers

Well, you might have noticed I haven't posted a run in a couple of days. There are a few reasons why and even as I type I'm not sure I'm going to publish this post. I am a pretty private person when it comes to certain issues in my life. But I feel a connection with you gals thorough our blogs and the faith we share. I already feel like I share a special part of my life with you through our bond of running so I wanted to open up to you about this as well. I went to see a specialist last Friday to discuss this pain under my right rib. After her examination of the area she decided I should go in for this pretty invasive procedure to see if we can pin point the source. I am scheduled for this procedure this coming Thur. and honestly I am extremely anxious about it. I am not so worried about the results, so much as the prep and procedure itself. I also have another chest x-ray scheduled for the 22nd. I am hoping that between these two I will have some idea what this could be. It was actually a chest x-ray they did last year that started all this in the first place. I will admit I have drug my feet on many procedures they have wanted to do because I have never had any medical problems and it has been extremely hard for me to submit to all the poking and prodding. But I have promised my husband that I will address this issue. What has been the hardest about this is that I am not comfortable talking about it and since I have not had to deal with medical problems personally I feel disjointed and uncomfortable with this being a part of my life. But the reality is this is right now where God has me and I am not doing a very good job submitting to it. The knees of my faith feel shaky and the lack of control I feel has me anxious. So I NEED your prayers! Pray that my faith would be strong. Practically pray that I will just sleep through the procedure Thursday and not be overly anxious. As far as running I didn't end up running Saturday or even Monday. I can't seem to mentally get past the circumstances I find myself in, yet I know that I would feel better if I went for a run. I plan to get a run in today because I know it will help me. I feel ashamed for my lack of faith and that is probably why I hesitate to share and expose myself in this way fearing that I will dishonor my Lord in some way. So again I covet your prayers that my faith will be strong. I know His grace is sufficient and will be in ready supply through this ordeal. More than anything the deepest longing in my heart is that I will not be an unfaithful servant and somehow in my weakness He will be glorified.

11 comments:

Kim said...

Terri,

I am so glad you posted this. I have been wondering how that pain was and if you ever found out what was causing it.

I will be praying for you. I am going to write down the specifics you have asked for prayer about and will keep it with me to pray.

I know this must be very hard for you because of what all you went through with your husband! But, God was faithful through that and I know you praise Him for bringing you both through that. He will be with you through this as well.

My greatest fears have to do with these sorts of things...either with me, my husband, or my children. I am very weak when it comes to this area of my life. I have prayed often that God would strengthen my faith so that I could walk through fiery trials and be a faithful trusting woman...most days I don't think I would walk in such a way, but be overshadowed with fear and questions of why. I had a dear friend remind me that it is when we are the most needy of Him and His grace(when we are weak) that He strengthens us...not before... but during. Isn't that reassuring? His grace is sufficient for everything we can face in this life.

I know you are trusting him through this and I will pray that your anxieties will be relieved and this will be a sweet time of trusting your Savior.

Know that I am praying and I am so glad you felt free to share your heart!

In God's STEADFAST Love and Grace
Kim

Leslie said...

I can't improve upon Kim's comment. Thanks for sharing this burden so that we can pray for you this Thursday.

Much Ado said...

Terri, I prayed for you during my run today. Thank you for sharing your heart so openly and the way you did it pointed to God, honored Him and gave Him the glory.

I will continue to pray for you and I just wanted to give you these verses from Psalm 61.1-4

Hear my cry, O God;
listen to my prayer.

From the ends of the earth I call to you,

I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

For you have been my refuge,
a strong tower against the foe.

I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.

Wendy said...

Terri, I will be praying for you as well. I am glad you shared this so we can all be praying for you.

Kate said...

You are so sweet. I feel that way when I am overcome with anxiety. Faith gets to put to the test on a higher level when we are being bombarded with fears. I'm sorry you are having to go through this yet. I will pray for you during the next few days and for you to have a clear understanding that He is with you and in total control. When I become overcome with these thoughts, I cling to Eph. 3:20-21. I hope that helps you. :) Praying for you...

PS - Does that pain in that area bother you when you run?

Terri said...

Thank you ladies so much for your encouragement, understanding and most of all your prayers. I somehow knew you all would rally to my side and for that I am eternally grateful. Thank you all again. I will keep you updated.

Kate, the pain under my rib doesn't bother me when I run but I have been having some discomfort in my right hip after a long run. But I don't know if the two are related??

Wendy said...

Good Morning Terri! Just wanted you to know I am praying for you today.

Much Ado said...

Praying for you today for the prep and procedure, that it will go smoothly and that God will give you a sense of calm and peace throughout the day.

Kim said...

I have been praying for you this morning while cleaning...Cast all your cares upon Him because He cares for YOU! Please update when you can. I will be praying much of today.

Kim said...

Just checking in with you to see how you are doing. Praying.

Wendy said...

Just checking in to see if you have updated.
Praying here too, friend.