Wednesday, November 2

Keep Your Eyes on the Mountains!!!

Taking a quick moment to update. As some of you might remember I tripped and fell pretty hard in July and ended up with an infected knee and chronic pain. I took off running about 1 month after the fall then started back off and on in August. Finally in September I went to see the doctor again (first time for the infection) as I was still experiencing pain in my knee but now also in my foot (same leg I fell on). I was told then that I had sprained my knee from the fall and that the foot pain was just me trying to overcompensate for the knee pain. Per doctors orders I took off a little more time and started running pretty consistently in September working up to 4 miles 5 days a week. This time my knee felt pretty good very little to no pain but the pain in my foot was getting more severe. I decided to keep running to see if it would just go away on it's own, but it got to such a level that I was starting to limp especially if I was not wearing a shoe. The location of the pain is very isolated around my middle toes and hurts worse when I flex my toes. I didn't have this pain before the fall and somewhat think the two are related. I took the past 3 weeks off and have nearly become pain free. I forgot what it was like to live without pain, feels like I've been able to take a deep breath for the first time in months. Unfortunately I walk/jogged today and the pain came right back...sigh. So today I scheduled an appointment with a sports doctor and will see him at the end of the month. I have not completely lost hope that I can run again and even looking forward to possibly running my first full marathon in 2012. I know God has a perfect plan in all this and I don't say that in anyway to trivialize how hard this issue has been to deal with. I have had days where hope has wavered and trying to figure out why God would not want me to do something I love so much has cause deep discouragement at times. I know that whatever His purpose in this is, it IS for my good, even if I can't see it. I know that my fall was not a surprise to Him in anyway but part of a certain course He has marked for me. I am no different than the next person who struggles when life feels out of control, but I am thankful that I have a God who is not only certain in His plans but also in His purposes. I pray I can glorify Him during this time. I'll keep you posted!

"I will lift up my eyes to the mountains; From where shall my help come? My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip..."  I believe it :)